"My mind tells me that past loves are soulmates, that my past self is the better version of me, that I was healthier and more attractive then. I then replay that over and over in my head until it’s nothing like the lived experience." This. I don't believe I have a future anymore, not like other people plan and visualise their future. The bottom fell out a couple years ago - loss of job, loss of artistic work, death of family- all within a week and a half. So I just surrendered. I live in the present and that's it. Yet I ruminate on my past far too much... 🖤
Very sorry to hear you’ve had some trauma. Rumination is normal but have you read The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle? It’s all about living in the present. It’s helped me through a lot of stressful times. Thanks for reading x
"My mind tells me that past loves are soulmates, that my past self is the better version of me, that I was healthier and more attractive then. I then replay that over and over in my head until it’s nothing like the lived experience." This. I don't believe I have a future anymore, not like other people plan and visualise their future. The bottom fell out a couple years ago - loss of job, loss of artistic work, death of family- all within a week and a half. So I just surrendered. I live in the present and that's it. Yet I ruminate on my past far too much... 🖤
Very sorry to hear you’ve had some trauma. Rumination is normal but have you read The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle? It’s all about living in the present. It’s helped me through a lot of stressful times. Thanks for reading x
Yes. Now is all we have..